I had dinner alone last night, while my boys camped in our bedroom upstairs, playing the latest Final Fantasy on the PS2. I chose to have dinner alone because I wanted to relish in the fact that I had a niiiiiice, clean house for once (been doing some lazy cleaning the past months, I had balls of dirt in the back of cabinets and tables, disgusting!!).
I had Carbonara, a pitcher of cold juice, mood music (of course!), coupled with mood lighting (para feel!), my favorite book and I also lit some scented candles. It was a blissful 30 minutes. Felt really good to do this after 2 days of hard labor. :D
Around 11 PM, I watched Leno's show while trying to bring myself to sleep (Leno's boring he'd put me to sleep at once!) . But he had an interesting guest so I had to stay awake for a couple more minutes. He had Ron Livingston on. I like Ron Livingston in Band of Brothers. I was not able to watch Ron Livingston in Sex and the City (as he mentioned something about in Leno's show)... which brings me to this thought:
As I am done with house cleaning and Christmas decorating, I've finally found the spirit of Christmas (finally!!!) I was complaining about this to friends sometime ago and told them it doesn't feel like Christmas yet. You know, that excitement kids feel before opening presents, I'd normally get the vibe sometime around end of October and I was so bothered the other week thinking I'm getting all Scrooge-y already.
Anyway, that's all over.
I have the Christmas spirit!
And during this season I've told myself I'll do two things (something I started with two years back):
1. Have a DVD Marathon of LOTR, all 12 discs
2. Have a DVD Marathon of Friends --- by the way, if you haven't seen Friends, all 10 Seasons, here's a condensed version :D (10 Years of Friends in 90 Seconds!)
Video by: impytherap
from Nobody's Watching TV
---> will blog about this sometime soon
And going back to Ron Livingston and Sex and the City, I think I'm going to set the DVD Marathon of Friends to much, much later and consider doing an SATC marathon instead (Ron appeared on the show sometime Season 5 or 6).
Here's a big confession: I stopped watching SATC after Carrie broke up with Aidan (this was Season 4, yes?) because I hated the way that relationship ended. In all honesty, that moment struck a chord with me (bweheh!) because I saw myself in that situation, in Carrie....and I could not forgive myself. So now, I want to give myself my own closure. I want to finally be able to watch this show in full --- from start to finish, without feeling guilty, nor sorry, nor mad at myself. I want to be able to tell myself that I've made the best bad decision and it all turned out well somehow (who knew!?). :D
Christmas is the time to forgive, forget, give love, move on and so on and so forth. so, that's what I'm doing, starting with myself. :)
I hope you all find the spirit of Christmas, too.
Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. --- Carrie Bradshaw