26 August 2006

Various Blah's

I've had a bad headache the last 3 days. I think I cried too much the other day. I cried out for frustration...about things that continue to happen over the yearssssssss. Anyway, I'm just quietly observing. I know someone is having a hard time adjusting to a compromise. And now I sit here, smiling by my loneself... as I recall how much someone tried very hard to prevent another outburst yesterday, lest I snarl back...again. You really have to be wary of a goodie-goodie fighting back. Because once they send for the arsenal, it's an all out war, baby.

Anyway, I think I have to credit Big Brother USA All Stars for my recent episode. That show, no matter how toxic it is, empowered me for some reason (haha, BI!). I don't normally get my temper out of control. However, pity the person who witnessed my episode. If I had a camera on me that time, I would imagine that my eyes were throbbing with anger. There's crazy old lady again, and she hasn't been out in awhile.


These days, I've been keeping tabs with classmates from College, whom I last saw 12 years ago. And as we talk about the things we did back in college, it made me realize how much of it I have blocked from my memory. There are lots of things I cannot recall now that we are talking about it. I don't remember some names or situations or events. And I feel sad...the moment I decided to forget a past filled with memories of just one person (e.g. an ex :P), it did not occur to me that I would also be erasing some things that I should have treasured, like things I did with my college friends. Now I'm struggling with the recall. How I wish I can turn back the time.

Anyway, here's an entry one college bud of mine wrote recently (inspired by KC's blog entry hahaha):

Sure we have our own lives now.
Sure we are successful in our own right.
Sure we are happy with our family.
Sure we've gone a long way and gathered a lot of wisdom.
Sure we'd rather have a tranquil moment than go out to some gimik places.
Sure we have cats and dogs.

But no matter what we are now.
No matter where we are now.
No matter how rich we may be.

We cannot discount the fact that from 1990-1994 we we're together in CA class 94.

Some of us hated D, Some loved R, Some despised Sir Bajo, most of us loved Ma'am I and everybody made fun of Orky Baby.

We had moments of confusion that comes with puberty.

Maybe it is for the same reason that we had more memories of fun and laughter shared together.

We were young and full of dreams.
- To be a newscaster, a film maker, performer, writer......nobody ever
dreamed of becoming a priest.

Sure A B became a newscaster
Sure G G became a film maker
Sure J A and E M became performers
Sure L C became an Air Force pilot who writes speeches of the Generals
Absolutely sure, C became a priest.

Sure the rest of us still long to become what we wanted after college.
Sure we may want it so badly but our obligations call for otherwise.
But one thing is for sure, we still have the talents and the creativity that only us CA students possess....

One day, we will come together and celebrate the winds we've taken off...and it's not bad after all to write everyday a future memory in one's mind because a day will come that those memories will unfold. Those memories are the only bond that we have. Some may cry of nostalgia, some may laugh of fondness and some may get angry at whoever kept those embarassing memories. Sure, embarassing memories will be kept forever,H.

As we gather more wisdom, we will come to realize that those bad and bully classmates are so lovable after all. Classmates who create their own world and stories can be source of a writers' creative ideas.

Sure, classmates are classmates forever.
Sure we want to keep the bond forever and make it stronger.

So, no matter how busy we may be. If there is a chance to see classmates once in a while for catching up, sure we will do everything in our power to find time for that precious moment that will be added to our memory bank.

Sure, that moment together yesterday was priceless....Bo's coffee is

And in honor of this class, I shall be watching a couple of 90s movies this weekend. I think I need to put myself back in that decade again and remember.


On the TV front...

I have just finished 3 seasons of Deadwood. I thought I would hate but I did not. Although I would understand why it's not on anyone's 'TV shows to Watch' list. It's a "talky" series. Not much cowboy action. Think of it as Sopranos, with many of the talking and little of the gunfight. Watch this show when you've had 3 cups of coffee because all the talking will make you fall asleep. It has a very good storyline though, only made less interesting because really, there's just too much TALK!

Viewed the first episode of Prison Break Season 2 last night. I saw shades of The Fugitive and Silence of the Lambs. Veronica is now chopped to bite size pieces and won't definitely be coming back...and Sara is still alive (why didn't they make her awakening much more suspenseful?) Went in a yellow suit? Divine!

Upon a friend's recommendation, I'm watching 2 British TV shows too. 1) The IT Crowd - a situational comedy; and 2) Shameless - which I'm watching blindly, with no clue about what it is. Which is good, surprise me then.

And tomorrow, it's Australian Idol Season 4 time, one whole week! Top 24 group rounds, watch the previews: